Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Our story


I’m not a great story teller

But I do write stories

Actually I just write our story

In a million different ways

And every time it ends the same

With you breaking my heart

And mending it again,

To break it even more

To hear it crack,

To write your name

Against each broken pieces of my heart

And call it yours, while

You don’t give me yours.

You dance with me and

Disappear as I twirl,

While my loose hair

Unties from the bun,

You leaves me standing there

In that dress and messed up hair.

While I dance to the slow sad music

” Silence ” and still feel your breath there

In the room.

As time flies by,

The stories they change

You and I are to blame.

And under this moonlight dome

I sit and write,

Another one of our story

Not to be read by you

But to be felt by pain and

I mourn you

Just the same.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

At least for you

When I said that I couldn’t breathe

I thought that you’d hear me,

Hear my heart composing odes

To all my heartbreaks.

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When I said that I was sad

I thought you’d feel the salt in my words

And know that my tears had

A story to tell.

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When I said that I trusted you

I thought that you’d understand that

I meant ‘ I love you’

And things beyond that .

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When I said that I’m subpar

I thought you’d say

I am good,

At least for you.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

I opened the door


I remember the day when my whole world came crashing down on me. When my yesteryears sin came knocking on my door and I let it in. when I let it hold me and take control of me and made space for it in my heart, again. Walking past the dead cells caused by cuts and bruises which has not yet turned into a dried up scar and is still raw, I could sense death. The doom of me was lurking in ever corner and i could find traces of that in my skin which was once alive and glowing. I could foresee the impending death of the purity in my soul, which I had gained through years of resistance and repentance.

I tried resisting my heart , but the words that darkness painted in front of me made it hard for me to resist the temptation. I tried pulling by the chain, which once helped me contain my inconsistent heart but with every pull my heart ached and so did I and I finally gave in. I opened the door and I gave in.

Now I lay here collapsed at the center of my youth, not being able to pick myself up from my putrid vomit of my sin, begging my Lord to give me one more chance and to restore my strength again, while the air was filled with asphyxiating stench of betrayal.

“I am sorry”.


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Let that be now

One day I’ll die and you won’t even know,

What I’ve been through.

I’ll just be a smear of black paint in the wide space,

Unseen by the eyes.

I’ll never see a star nor be one, I’ve never shined,

Not even once.

I’ll never be good, good enough, enough now,

Now it’s time to die.

I did try hard, to stay alive, I tried to breathe,

As hard as I can.

But the air got stuck in the vortex in between,

my mind and heart.

And tears lodged my lungs making it unbearable for me,

To carry on any further.

So one day, I’ll die, let that be now,

Why not now.


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Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

My permanent smile


I think I’m in love with you.

It was unexpected

I just stumbled upon,

Your kind heart and fell,

Fell into your arms

And I’ve been residing in your heart,

Ever since then.

You gave me a permanent smile

Dressed me in pink

Hugged me tight

Made me forget the past and the future.

And my legs never stopped floating

Ever since you met me and

Ever since we journeyed together,

The same way and to the same place,

Into each other’s arms.

I think I’m in love with you.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Dear spring


The leaves are all gone

And I am standing here

Bare naked, waiting for your arrival.

For you to come, touch me by the cold

In the due filled mist of foggy morning

To make me warm and clothed again

In the spring and summer.

Gifting me with green leaves

And impregnating my leaves less arms

With fruits that I’ve hidden inside of me,

For oh so long.

So I’m standing here

With all my follies and pride gone

With all of it shedded down into the earth

And looking into the sky, waiting for your arrival dear spring.


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Picture taken by me 😀😁😂😉

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