Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Floweraid


I have used a flower as a bandaid

To fill a hole in my heart

Expecting the stem and

The thorn to stitch the wound

Bitterly raw,

With all the pain

healing all the wound.

Can a flower grow roots

I do not know

But I wish they did

Because then they can grow

And be in my heart

Filling that hole

As long as I shall live.

Because I see that this wound won’t heal

And I wish that the flower would hide

The deformity of my heart from others and myself.

I have used a flower as a bandaid

To hide a hole in my heart.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

My grave


Underneath that tree

Who’s roots have found

The elixir of sadness

Is where you’ll find my grave.

With ripped open heart, soiled clothes

And rusted coffin, I lay there exposed.

With dirt filling my nose

And flesh falling of my hands

Inside my grave I lay,

Cold and fed by darkness.

Sunshine visited the place once

The day I was burried probably

And you can see that I lack vitamin D

Pale are my skin and depressed my thoughts.

Autumns came, winters passed

Summers missed and spring did rot,

My coffin’s gone and so will I be

But my epitaph will stay

For you all to see.

Underneath that tree

Who’s root have found

The elixir of sadness

Is where you’ll find my grave.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Sadness for breakfast


I had a plate of sadness for breakfast,

I had it with a glass of tears

Early, at six in the morning.

I chewed it throughly

Just like how I was taught in childhood

And swallowed it slowly.

I could hear my stomach protest to this,

The hate and rejection I had for dinner

Late at night was still undigested

In my stomach,

And my early breakfast

Wasn’t taken well.

My stomach growled and protested

And I could sense a sort of

Reverse peristalsis happening inside me.

Suddenly everything I had gulped down

Rushed back to my throat.

And it tasted something like overcooked depression,

Stubborn and rebellious to go down.

I could feel my oesophagus convulsing

Struggling to keep my words in it’s place.

They weren’t coming out nor going in,

So I just had another glass of tears,

Then they all went down

Leaving behind a metallic taste in my mouth

And a stench in my breath,

And then I went to bed

Like nothing happened

Like I was alright.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Pulse


I tried to feel the pulse

On my left hand

In between the pressure

Of my thumb and index finger

To confirm life.

I could feel my pulse once

I could feel it twice

I could feel it 106 times

In a minute.

Then I tried to reach

Inside my chest

To feel my heart,

To feel the blood make my hand warm

But unfortunately,

I still was dead

And my blood cold.


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Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Rooted in heart


You planted a seed in my heart

It grew tall, it grew wide

The roots went deep inside my heart

Flowers bloomed and fruits it bore.

But when you left

You cut down the tree

Timbeerrr. . . . . It fell

Now without the tree and it’s roots

The soil above my heart erroded

And the blood inside it corroded

And my love went stale.


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Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Garden above my skin


I have a garden which I’ve been growing

I’ve been growing them above my skin.

A patch of pansy’s and some amaryllis

Who’s roots runs deep inside my flesh.

Feeding itself from the streams of happiness and smile

Blooming those flowers in vibrancy for everyone’s eyes.

They feeds on everything nice and

What’s left inside is just

Thick oozing dark blood that’s mine

Running through my conscience

Darkening my sorrows.

I’ve been growing a beautiful garden

Above my skin,

To hide the grave underneath it.


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