Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Flickering streetlights


The flickering streetlights

In the dark,

Reminded me of the fireflies

I met, while I was twelve.

When my Pappa took me out

To see a full moon in all its glory

In the open field where a cherry tree stood.

I wasn’t matured then but

Innocent and curious I was

And no darkness didn’t instill,

Any pain in me, the fireflies was enough.

But now as I walk through

This silent street, which once was busy,

Where now only empty windows and

Caged dreams reside,

And lights flickered in neglect while

Streets were filled with shame,

I think to myself

How well the world has changed,

For maturity is a book now

And innocence a bane,

And fireflies aren’t enough anymore

Or the flickering lights.

And as the alleys darkened more

The lights asked me to run,

If not then it would be my turn to change.


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© 19/02/19 The Rendezvous Club

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This poem was written in response to a writing challenge by The inked squares

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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

At least for you

When I said that I couldn’t breathe

I thought that you’d hear me,

Hear my heart composing odes

To all my heartbreaks.

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When I said that I was sad

I thought you’d feel the salt in my words

And know that my tears had

A story to tell.

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When I said that I trusted you

I thought that you’d understand that

I meant ‘ I love you’

And things beyond that .

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When I said that I’m subpar

I thought you’d say

I am good,

At least for you.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

I opened the door


I remember the day when my whole world came crashing down on me. When my yesteryears sin came knocking on my door and I let it in. when I let it hold me and take control of me and made space for it in my heart, again. Walking past the dead cells caused by cuts and bruises which has not yet turned into a dried up scar and is still raw, I could sense death. The doom of me was lurking in ever corner and i could find traces of that in my skin which was once alive and glowing. I could foresee the impending death of the purity in my soul, which I had gained through years of resistance and repentance.

I tried resisting my heart , but the words that darkness painted in front of me made it hard for me to resist the temptation. I tried pulling by the chain, which once helped me contain my inconsistent heart but with every pull my heart ached and so did I and I finally gave in. I opened the door and I gave in.

Now I lay here collapsed at the center of my youth, not being able to pick myself up from my putrid vomit of my sin, begging my Lord to give me one more chance and to restore my strength again, while the air was filled with asphyxiating stench of betrayal.

“I am sorry”.


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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Dear spring


The leaves are all gone

And I am standing here

Bare naked, waiting for your arrival.

For you to come, touch me by the cold

In the due filled mist of foggy morning

To make me warm and clothed again

In the spring and summer.

Gifting me with green leaves

And impregnating my leaves less arms

With fruits that I’ve hidden inside of me,

For oh so long.

So I’m standing here

With all my follies and pride gone

With all of it shedded down into the earth

And looking into the sky, waiting for your arrival dear spring.


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Picture taken by me 😀😁😂😉

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Personal Thoughts, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

I opened it all


The thing which was concealed from all

The door which was locked to be hidden away

The part of me which I have stored away,

From Moon, Sun and all sources of light

I have opened it in front of you,

To show you that this is really me,

For it’s what we hide that makes the most of us

The only thing that pulls together

Every other part in our body is this.

It keeps us whole

It makes us whole

And I have opened it in front of you,

Not listening to my mind

Forgetting about the tears warning

That I have shed for trust.

Ignoring all the warnings

I opened myself in front of you

And . . . . . You left me.


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© 27/01/19 The Rendezvous Club

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Personal Thoughts, Thought for Change, Thought for the day, Thoughts recollected in Tranquility

Holes


The infinite number of days we’ve spent

Talking about the holes we have in each other

Making up plans to fill those holes,

Coming to a conclusion that,

Whatever darkness we both held

Can’t fill our holes because

Darkness leaves a void. . .

Then you gave me your hole and

I gave you mine and we became whole for a while

I never knew before that

Holes in two chest can be filled

If you just put one above the other,

But it just did, and the holes became whole

Until time came with light and

Two hearts parted, for the best.

That’s when I realized that

No one is whole, everyone is full of holes

And those holes never filled mostly because

Future intervened and the present

Slowly drifted into past!


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17/01/19 © The Rendezvous Club

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